Tish<3

so theres this girll...

and theres two boys....

best friends to be exact....

the girl really likes this boy. really. knew him for a while. will never be allowed to date this boy. but she really really likes him.

his best friend likes this same girl. other boy doesnt want him to hang out with her. girl doesnt want to hang out with him. at all. but kinda feels like there is not going to be anyone else ever. and why cant she give him a chance

boy says "hes not a good guy, dont hang out with him"
other boy says "hes just jealous, because he wants you for when he comes home"

girl says : i just want to cry. and i have nobody to talk to this with because they cant know.

girl types in livejournal.

okay, so its a friday night

i dont understand girls.
i really dont.

like seriously, i havnt had a boyfriend in over a YEAR now..
im on aim because im a loser and have no friends..
and im reading these girls profiles..
on girl ALWAYS has a boyfriend..
and now, for 3 days shes single.
go fuck yourself.
it said "hi im ____, and im single [sad face]
like seriously, if she was sitting right next to me
id throw a bow

this makes me even more upset.
i dont even get guys either.
how can you not "imagine yourself being with me?"

!!%!^$^GSF#%&#%

ughhhh =[ it just seems like all my friends are with someone and im not.

and i never will be.

i dont understand what i do?!

explain.

-- badddddd niggghhhhhttttt

football game tomorrow.. go mustangs i guess..

its the same thing everytime

i start talking to someone
we start to go out places
i ruin it
its done

replay.

i hate it. im done. im not going to talk to anyone anymore, ill wait for someone good enough to talk to me

so m bored, and ive been thinking about it for a while now and i was just thinking about what the perfect guy [for me at least] is.

- he'll hold my hand in front of his friends. even if they are better looking girls.
- like, we can joke a bit, but dont make the whole relationship a big joke.
- listen to me. talk to me and the phone for hours.
- make me laugh, and not feel uncomfortable around you
- dont let his friends make fun of me, no matter how funny it is, i hate it.
- be friends with my friends, but not like WHOA friends.
- i dont care about presents. i dont want him to get me something expensive, ill probobly lose it.
- be my best friend.

yeah, so thats been on my mind, had to journal it =/

ughhhhh <3?

i found my first day of school outfit

its wonderful =D

plaid skirt wit maroon shirt.

love it.

went to jens today, went to LG's after.

fun day<3.

i LOVVVEEEE my new outfit.

eep.

today i went to soccer.
ran without stopping =]
i am proud of myself lol

then i went to swim wit jen at my gmammas house

then i went to the mall with john, jen, cj, and matt.

fun fun.

me and john got beeped at by a cop =[ not fun!

o well<3

day = fufilling [sp?]

WOW!

today blew nuts.

seriously, i literally slept for half the day.


i did wash. thats it. i could of been at the shore, but people annoy me =].

alrighty, im out.

<3 day = boring!!

a kutthroatKISS: yo my names tish, my d-o-double g smells like fish, i like chinese food, but i ain't chinese dude. im a quarter black, aint that wack?! so i eat fried chicken with some kool-aid. surprisingly it don't make me chunky, so i can still get laid. my mom makes me bike it every morning so i tell her to go smoke another doobie, that'll get her soaring. so thats all i got, i like to smoke pot, it sure as hell gets me soaring, just as a warning.
MY LG OWNS!<3

Lg made me a rap. i heart it muchly.

last night erika and linds came over and bob and john were sopposed to come over but bob was gay =]. so it was just me LG and er. we went to this girl jess's party. it was fun lmao. then we went back over to er's house and hung out with her brother and his friends. then we went to bed. hah.

morning. in the time stopping basement.
10:00 AM

uncle paul come over and makes me dip my oreo into my green tea

it was SO gross. dont do it. i felt, still kinda do, like im going to barf.

oh, btw, i love mr. drayton lmao.

JOSE! JOSE! JOSE! [lmao linds<3!]


friday night; upsetting at first:: better at night!!

yesterday i woke up at like 7:30, getting ready for soccer and then my mom said i didn't need to go because it was super dooper hot out =). then i went back to bed and then i did all my shit and went over jens to get ready for the movies.

we went to the movies and we saw you,me & dupree.
it was good
i went with johnaskip<3, jen, and his 2 friends.

then we went home and got wawa cause we were REALLY hungry.

kk peace out. its like 7 in the morning and i need sleep.


YAY~ the vicksterrr is coming over today! =]

i woke up today at 7:30 cause my moms a jerk and made me do the dishwasher b4 my grandmom came over to clean. then i went back downstaris to sleep and andrew was playing his stupid game which made tons of noises, and i asked him to turn it down and he said he HAD! to have it on, which he didnt. so i had to sleep in the living room and then when my gmomma was done in my room i moved back and it was just a pain in the neck! thhhennnn i had to do the laundry, its way hot out and our dryer is broken, so we have to hang them outside, in the hotness. well WE dont have to hang them up, I do. but i got ice cream cause i was a "good helper" aha. that makes me giggle.

then i went to work with my grandpop and my uncle nicky boom boom.

i made $ =)[thank god!]

day = blah until the end =)

OH! p.s. -- im hanging out with frog man tomorrow =) yay

i thought i would be super happy girl right now.
but now all i get is dissapointment.
Ehh. You all suck. =)

Today i went to soccer.
no one was there.
it was hot as balls outside.
people who were there :: ash j, alex, amy, tina, jen, me, sarah.

tina came over after practice.
i missed her so =)

we watched movies and such.

the pool was off-limits considering a 5 year old child was in it =(

ugh.

day = tireing

when i hear sunday this is what i think of

church.
toast and butter.
acme.
aunt shell
pool.
scrabble./dominoes.
ice cream.&coffee

its the same thing every week. i go to church, go to my great grandparents house, eat toast&butter EVERY WEEK SINCE I WAS 5!. go to acme with my grandmom. go to my grandmoms house for dinner. make fun of my aunt shell. go swimming. play scrabble/dominoes. eat ice cream & coffee.



well next week, no church.
no andrew. =) and =(
they are going to the beach. i refused to go because of soccer
O WELL!

i miss erika hahahahaha
& KELLY!!!!

weekend = major suckass!!

chyea. so we ran 2 miles today at soccer..
did i mention i rode my bike there?
yeahhhhh, didnt think so =)

well i did.
jen did not come
i ran by myself
i hate running
i have a feeling im going to hate soccer season this year
because linds and erika arn't doing it
i know im going to be stuck on JV until im a senior neway
boooo

i rode my bike home.
my legs were cramped
it hurt much.

i jumped in the pool with all my clothes on
i felt awesome
i called jen, and now we are ordering chinese

i DESERVE chinese =)

end of journal =)

yeah, so i have to get my wisdom teeth pulled out.
who would want me with a big bruised face =(
NOT HIM =(

my mom is selling avon.
when i am 16, i will be selling MARK*
yeah, so buy from us. haha.

im really hoping this surgery will be taking place BEFORE school.
i'll be very upset if it doesn't.

day = upsetting.

today is wednesday, today is project runway.

i attempted to ride my bike to soccer today. i fell and my bike made this weird screeching noise and i had to walk it all the way homeeeeeee. boooooooo.

linds & jen came over to watch project runway. jen is gone. LG is here.

end of journal =)

i had wicked dreams last night lol. i did nothing today except wash.. blah day pretty much =/ o well. tomorrow i run. thursday i work. friday i hang out. saturday i do not know lol.

ugh. i wish i had a planner, but i wish it was full =/

and i wish i had a real job.

ehh, summer o7 better bring me cash =)

so today i went to soccer practice today, sweated like a pig. lol. it was SO hot out! then jen came over and we swam and watched 40 year old virgin. i love that movie. then i went with LG to get her bird. o god, me her and her mom were crackin bird jokes all night. lindsay was like to her mom "mom, you can't touch my bird!" and mrs. griendling was like LINDSAY I DONT WANT TO TOUCH YOUR BIRD!!" o godd.. it doesnt get old. we ordered pizzzza. and we ate pizzzzzza. hmm. kbye. o wait, i have a fun quiz =)

had sex-- $20
went past first base-- $20
only went to first base-- $2
smoked-- $12
got drunk-- $21
went skinny dipping-- $10
kissed someone of the opposite sex-- $1
had more than one bf/gf at the same time-- $3
cheated-- $2
fallen asleep in class-- $0.50
cheated on a quiz-- $5
been expelled-- $1
been in a fist fight-- $2
done oral-- $18
got oral-- $10
prank called the cops-- $1
stolen something-- $10
done drugs-- $12
dyed your hair-- $10
done something with someone older-- $2
went out with someone OVER 18 if you're under 18-- $3
ate a whole thing of oreos-- $1
visited GoofyAuctions.com--$0
cried yourself to sleep-- $5
said you love someone but didnt mean it-- $2
been in love-- $2
got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doin-- $7
peed your pants from laughing too hard--$5
went streaking-- $10
got arrested-- $1
madeout with someone at the movies-- $6
peed in the pool-- $0
played spin the bottle-- $5
done something you regret-- $5
had sex with more than one person-- $9
been to NYC drunk or stoned-- $8
owned your own car-- $0
had a job for more than 2 months-- $4
killed someone-- $50

ayyy... 152.50
guess what it was lol <3.

Yeah, so i finally spoke up about something =). im glad i did.

.. went to laurens sweet 16 party last night. it was fun. i went with vicki, moni, and megan. it was really fun! I'm glad i went =)

IM AT LINDS! WOHOOOOO. PARTY WAS GREAT! CHUNKY IN THE CLOSET.

do not ask, lol. rach, mark, and jenn know lol.